Trying to get it right

Over 21 years later and still trying to get it right.

Some days it works. It's smooth.

and I smile

Other days it's nausea in my throat.

Going here, running there. Looking here and closing my eyes there.

Wishing and expecting.

She said, "Why can't it be normal. I just wanted everything to be fine."

What do I know?
I'm trying too...