FOMO

FOMO. Fear Of Missing Out.
It touches my jealousy button. It touches my "it's never enough" button. Or wishing I had more.

Knowing my family is together on the other side of the ocean.
Knowing my friends are having a party without me.
Knowing my neighbors are taking nice vacations when I'm not. Or can't.

Wanting what other people have, wishing I had more.

Then appreciating what I've got. Always having to remind myself. Constant reminding.

Why do I naturally go to that place first? Wanting more. Wishing for more. Never being enough?

It's not fair. To me, to my family.
I have so much. I do so much. I am so much.

But my brain tells me I'm missing out and there has to be, I need, I want more....

It's exhausting.