Another passion

Tonight I was reminded how much I love to perform on stage in front of an audience.
For me, it is the ultimate in being seen and validated.
I love to sing on stage, act and dance. I might not be the best, or the most talented, but I love the experience.

the applause, the laughs, the nods, the tears.
It all feeds something inside me.
There is a thrill, an excitement.
I'm not afraid. It doesn't scare me to get up there.

I know I am surrounded by love and friendship and acceptance.

I am talented, and I am thankful.

In my day...

It's 1:30 am on a Thursday night.
I decided to leave the rest of what I needed to do in the kitchen for tomorrow.
I left DB in the kitchen with two of his girl friends.
One was washing my dishes. The other was drinking soup.
I left them in my kitchen...

Now, in MY day......

GrUmpy

Bad mood.
Resentful
not fair.
It's always me.
Can't sleep
Shut down
Do I have to do it all?
Won't someone take care of me?
Without me asking?
Tired.
Don't want to do anything.
Be responsible
Do it all
You have to.
It's expected.
What if I did nothing?
What if....?
Clueless.
Really just clueless.
Makes me grumpy.
And mad.
And tired...