Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Why I don't go to sleep

If I stay up, then I get things done.
Problem is, I'm too tired to do anything.

If I go to sleep I've wasted time not getting things done.

Seems so logical, but sounds so stupid.

So I stay up just in case I get something done.

But I never do.

What the hell is wrong with me?!

Where did Superwoman go?

She used to live in my body.
And now she seems to have disappeared.
Every so often she comes back for a visit and makes me look good again.
But, otherwise.
I am on my own.
And not doin' what I used to.

Wonder why she left me?!

Monday, January 02, 2012

Speaking with confidence

Trying to teach my children - even the adult ones - to speak with confidence.
Ask for what you want. Ask for what you need. Ask with confidence.
Being able to deal with disappointment.
Say it like you mean it.
Not demanding, but confident.
Know what it is you want.

Don't be whishy-washy

Planning a Bat mitzvah

Who to invite.
What to wear? What do I care?
Priorities. What is important?
I used to be so judgmental. Now, I don't care.
Make it what she wants.
Making people happy.
Wishing I could just show up.
Making her happy.
Wanting her to feel special.
Wanting it all to go away.
Exhausted.Snapping my fingers.

Let me know when it's over.