Thursday, December 28, 2006

Snow day dilemma

Should I stay or should I go?

That is the question.

It's snowing in Jerusalem. Not where I live, but heavily in the Holy City.

The city closes down when it snows. Cars and buses are just not equipped to drive on slippery snowy and icey roads.

I need to make a decision.

I have a client at the clinic tomorrow at 9 AM. Which means I need to leave my house at 7:30 AM - maybe even earlier because of the snow.

I have a staff meeting and then a private client and private supervision.

Should I bother?

I'll be the hero if I go in. I'll feel irresponsible if I don't.

Are those the only two options?

My clients might not even show up.

It's a snow day dilemma.

Another thought to share

Remember my new favorite book, FEELING GOOD, by David Burns, M.D.?
Yeah, well, I’m still reading it … at a snails pace.
I skip around sometimes.
Here’s a paragraph I opened up to today. It’s really got me going. I believe his premise is that “Just as love, companionship, and marriage are not necessary for happiness and self-esteem, they are not sufficient either.”
Parts of it are hard for me to take. I’m still thinking about it:

“There is a difference between wanting and needing something. Oxygen is a need, but love is a want. I repeat: LOVE IS NOT AN ADULT HUMAN NEED! It’s okay to want a loving relationship with another human being. There is nothing wrong with that. It is a delicious pleasure to be involved in a good relationship with someone you love. But you do not need that external approval, love, or attention in order to survive or to experience maximal levels of happiness.” (p. 322)

What do you think?

By the way, UYO happens again in February. I get to go as an angel this time. Wanna come?!

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

32,000 plus question

I haven't been able to read my counter in awhile so I had no idea how many hits I was up to.

So here's a question I've been thinking about and wonder what you all think:


I'm coming up on my half birthday (Jan. 5th) and have been thinking about how I want to spend my real birthday. I've decided I want to create my own party this year.

What do you think?

Not much

I continue to be in a place of feeling like I don't have much to write about. A lot has happened that I could catch you up on, but the meaningful stuff seems harder to write about.

Why do you think writers get stuck?

What is it that I am afraid to write about?

Sickness in my home. NED has a REALLY bad virus; fever, cough, headache. She is sleeping alot.
MB is coughing.
ELY had lice (does that count as illness?!).
DB has teenage attitude and pullingawayness. (THAT is definitely an illness - very very contagious!)

Ari leaves again on Wednesday for a short trip to NY. I am wondering why I put up with it. Why am I okay with it? Or am I? Do I have a choice?

ME? Something is not 100% right. Maybe it's a mood? Maybe it's a phase? Maybe I need a break? Maybe I need a good shake? Maybe I need to exercise? Maybe I need to not eat so much? Maybe I need to just learn to love and accept me? Maybe...

So, not so much to write about...

Oh, and Merry Christmas to my friends who celebrate and Happy New Year to all those who care!


Tuesday, December 19, 2006

On Vacation

No work this week.
Went to the Jerusalem zoo today with the whoel family-
nice break from routine.
Parents and inlaws are here - interesting experience.

What else am I supposed to write about these days?

Friday, December 15, 2006

Happy Birthday NED!

She's 14 today.

The cake is on the oven.

I'm 14 years older and hopefully wiser since I gave birth to her.


Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Starting to make sense

This is my new favorite sentence from the book, Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy, by David D. Burns, M.D.

It helps me to understand better the UYO Story A or Story B scenario:

"It is an obvious neurological fact that before you can experience any event, you must process it with your mind and give it meaning. You must understand what is happening to you before you can feel it."

Thoughts control our feelings.

Now to figure out how to change those thoughts...

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Nothing to say

It always amazes me how some bloggers have something to post almost every day.

I don't.

Well, I might. But I have found that complaining and writing about some topics are off limits.

So for now I will stick with the usual check-in:

DB is taking driving lessons and begining the process this week of deciding what to do next year. Army or Yeshiva, or some kind of combination.

MB is busy with school and softball and woman's American flag football. She is a key actress in the SECRETS program I am involved in.

NED joined a dance class I hope she will stick with. She is doing very well in school, working very hard to keep up!

ELY is reading hebrew all the time now. Whatever she can get her hands on, she reads.

Ari is settling into his new job and schedule. He's home alot. Last week he cleaned the entire first floor of the house. Thanks Ari!

Little Ol' me... Busier than ever. I turned away two private clients last week. Mostly because they were kids and I don't work with kids. But I don't know if they were teens if I would have taken them either. Just way too much going on for me. This SECRETS program will be the challenge of a lifetime for me. I will be the group facilitator for the show. Something different than anything I have ever done. I love challenges!
Thank G-d for Shabbat. Otherwise I would never be home, it feels!

Busy month ahead.

Hope I'll have stuff to write about!